Though I think you’re short-changing yourself and over-glorifying Silas’ actions. Is it really that you’re feeling burdened by the thought of giving up your own money to the poor man, or is it a rational ingrained fear of nickel and diming your money away on handouts that would go against your later blog entry on the Christian’s hippocratic oath?

I think most people I know at CCFC would gladly give away quite a lot of money on street handouts if they believed that either (1) God wanted them to or (2) could themselves see the positive effects of such an action. I can’t imagine that you’d be the exception. It actually feels so good to give someone something they need directly on the spot when they’re begging for it, especially when they’re appreciative like poor people in undeveloped countries. I think that’s more of what Silas is experiencinig.